You Give Me Some Incredible Love

Somehow I am missing that particular person, a person I don't have the right to miss. And I'm pretty sure that person has totally forgotten me, like I was never really anything important at all. Just a phase passing by, something that should've never existed in the first place. This kind of thought is killing me slowly inside, even though I know I don't deserve it. Nobody should deserve this kind of feeling.

I really feel like my emotion at this state is in the combination of a paragraph in Ingrid Michaelson's song, Incredible Love and James Morrison's song, You Give Me Something.

Everything says it's time to go
But the smell of your skin makes me stay
You are not mine to ask things of
But I ask you anyway, but I ask you anyway

You only stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep
I was meant to tread the water
But now I've gotten in too deep
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away

You only waited up for hours
Just to spend a little time alone with me
And I can say I've never bought you flowers
I can't work out what they mean
I never thought that I'd love someone
That was someone else's dream

Sometimes I wonder if meeting that person was a mistake, or if being apart so soon is the best thing that should happen to me. Because even then if it worked out, I never knew what it would become like. I don't even know if I would be happy anyways, there's no guarantee in life. You just have to live it and hope for the best for yourself.

Life will be better.. It always does..